Spreading myself too thin
Call center agent by night, blogger by day, mom and wife 24/7. No wonder why I’m feeling so harassed lately, all I ever want is a deep slumber. Maybe some of my friends in the blogosphere have noticed my silence for the past few days. There goes the explanation.
See, I go to work at 12 midnight just when everyone is asleep or preparing to go to bed. I come home at past 8 am, cook breakfast, eat some (sometimes not), clean the house, prepare the laundry to be sent to the laundry shop. Only then can I have the privilege to sleep. Then I wake up again by 12:30 to make sure my daughter eats her lunch. After washing the dishes, blah blah (You know the endless chores moms do at home right?), I check my two emails, my two blogs and visit other blogs if I can still hold my head up literally. Lucky me if I get to catch some sleep beyond 4 hrs in a day.
I even missed an interview with ODesk last week for a 6-month online job. I couldn’t possibly squeeze it in my already jam-packed schedule. So I decided to switch my ODesk profile to private so that prospective employers can’t view it unless I apply.
Lately, I’m afraid the daily grind has started to take a toll on me. But I’m a mom. I can’t complain. It’s not a bed of roses to raise a family and I’m sure other parents have undergone even bigger challenges in their lifetime. Nobody forced me to work again anyway, it was my own decision. And I don’t regret it. I know I’m kind of spreading myself too thin. But I’m really stubborn by nature. I’m staying with my job until the next school year starts. In the end, my family stays on top of my priority.
I think I’ll still be alive by then anyway, lol.
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April 29th, 2009 3:52 am
Aww! I can relate to you in terms of juggling your time in your call center work because I am doing the same too…
I have yet to have a family of my own but for now I feel guilty when I only spend less time with my mom and sister because of my work and some part time stints online.
I hope you can find some time to rest and revive your energy. Wish you well!
April 29th, 2009 6:23 am
Wow, I never knew you are living that life….I can’t do that since I love my sleep and always prioritize “not to be stressed”—-stress for me causes so much destruction to my psyche and to my body—which is more awful that I am no longer productive anymore. So I prioritize only what needs to be prioritized.
I was planning to have children so my hubby asked me to stop working. But my attempts were unsuccessful and parenting could never happen to me—I am now looking for work again.
April 29th, 2009 12:02 pm
Call Center Gal and Bingkee: thanks for the comments. i get to recover enough during my 2 days off. usually, i try to offset the lost number of hours i should have spent sleeping so i really make an effort to stay in bed as much as I can on Mondays and Tuesdays when I’m off from work. however,it’s really different if one gets enough sleep everyday, right? i can only sigh. =)
Bingkee: I hope you can still experience parenting coz it’s such a bliss. Your time will come. Who knows?
Call Center Gal: good luck on your future family plans. congrats in advance!
April 29th, 2009 6:55 pm
Ah yes the night shift worker. I have worked night shift, ever since getting pregnant with my second child. I can totally relate to the lack of sleep, and feeling of yuckiness. I was so happy when I could cut back my hours, and do more internet online work from home. I personally think the housework can wait a bit, so you can rest. We as moms find it hard to think we can not do it all, but we really can not. Our bodies eventually get us in the long run. Take care of yourself.
April 29th, 2009 8:39 pm
I know you’re doing this for your family, but you also need to make sure you don’t overdo it. Your family needs you healthy. I agree with Melissa, the housework is not a priority over sleep.
May 1st, 2009 9:36 am
Hi,
You really are spreading yourself too thin. You need some time for yourself.
May 14th, 2009 4:33 am
I just saw this post. I don’t know how I missed it . You sound like me. I tend to spread myself too thin. I even found myself raising the question if it was too much on me doing the blogging thing with everything else I am trying to do (And with my call center job too!) My husband said I should keep at the blogging, because I loved it. This is true. I just wish he would have said…”Quit you call center job.” No such luck. Hang in there and get some rest.